Online fun without the porn.

Having an active computer connection without having anyone to talk to beats the lonely blues.  Like I’m really getting into it.  Going from one web site to another as each one changes and moves like a clown machine.

I know the American economy is going down.

All the economic news just sucks at my enthusiasm for life.  Tough times gives me kind of a sick feeling.  Why can’t all the bad news happen all at once!

Butterfly’s

I am enthusiastic about a love adventure I am suddenly on, but it makes me tired when she takes my breath away from excessive butterfly’s.

Calm is preferable.

I’ve been feeling that enthusiasm is nice, but it can be a bit overwhelming sometimes.   Hearts can go on overload, bad things can happen.  Things can get out of balance.  We can feel fanatic and lose our ability to reason in the process.   Without reason you are hardly conscious.  You are wild and make mistakes with an ease that even might surprise yourself.

Tired of lamo stuff.

I’m enthusiastic.  But less so for the community.  Sometimes you just can’t even depend on a large community.  Too much like high school.  Fighting for social position over some girls who aren’t at all worth the drama and compitition.

One more thing.

Less women of the bad ass men.

Name one thing.

Less bad ass dudes in my face.

Cigar enthusiam

How can I feel enthusiastic

When there is so much coldness

I think I’ll get a cigar

Winner take all.

I am trying not to be enthusiastic about what I think I know that’s bad about Duffy’s.

I need to forget it.

It’s not big deal.

It’s the community of Chico.

But it still scares me

And gives me sick memories.

Totall enthusiasm.

To I am just enthusiastic

I don’t need to justify a reason

I’ve just been zapped with a good feeling

It all feels possible.