Name one thing.

Less bad ass dudes in my face.

Cigar enthusiam

How can I feel enthusiastic

When there is so much coldness

I think I’ll get a cigar

Winner take all.

I am trying not to be enthusiastic about what I think I know that’s bad about Duffy’s.

I need to forget it.

It’s not big deal.

It’s the community of Chico.

But it still scares me

And gives me sick memories.

Totall enthusiasm.

To I am just enthusiastic

I don’t need to justify a reason

I’ve just been zapped with a good feeling

It all feels possible.

I am still jewish.

I can’t really lose it

It is not a bad thing

Jews aren’t just for Jews

They are generous souls

Who rarely give up

And fight for what is right

Where badness rules.

Big hopes.

I am enthusiastic that the people of the United States will get seriously updated.

Scum of the earth.

I am now able to see

That you have learned to be a hater

Through what ever indoctrination

Your eyes burn with the evil

You are dangerous

Hate will never leave you

It will be with you every second

And drain the world of it’s soul

Which you have lost

You boil with envy

Your killer insticts

Make you more of an animal

Than a human being.

I’m so enthusiastic!!!!

It’s like I feel so lacking in enthusiasm that I feel great enthusiasm.  Enthusiasm as a word sort of implies anxiety to me sometimes.  Yet sometimes enthusiasm is something that happens while you are feeling it so you can only talk about enthusiasm after you’ve experienced it.  While anticipation of enthusiasm may also lead to anxiety a little alcohol can put all these thoughts to rest.

Hope.

I am enthusiastic about hope because I have been given no strong reason to lose it.

I can only go up from here.

I suppose I am enthusiastic that soon I will begin to feel more enthusiastic. I just got over an awful flu which I barely survived in my mind.  A return to health and hopefully getting my social life to be happier would thrust me much closer to that feeling that I am wishing for.